December 20, 2008

• Back to business

  I dreamed last night that I was back at my family's house. My father was there, and since I knew that he shouldn't be, I told him how wonderful it was to see him, and hugged him for a long time. All over the house, every available tupperware container (without lids, of course) held guinea pigs of various colours and ages, and more still were roaming free. Back in the real world, I tossed and turned and coughed my way through the night, then called in sick to work.

  It's been an odd year. Back in March, I had an unexpected health adventure, which had me off work for a couple of months, and it took quite a while after that to get back to whatever normal is. It's really only the past couple of months that I've been getting back to myself, and other than a few highlights, most of 2008 has made very little impression on my memory. I'm trying to be at peace with that, especially since there's nothing to be done about it.

  And so here I am, in the last couple of weeks of December, embroiled in the process of getting myself on the go again. I'll spare you the gory details, but my efforts consist mostly of making peace with this job I dislike so much, acquiring some new gear which will enable me to start making things again, reestablishing some professional credibility in my areas of expertise, and getting ready for next year's return to university. Over the past few weeks I've gotten the chance to visit with several old friends -- friends who are making a living doing what they love. It's not always a great living, but it's reminding me that there's a balance for me somewhere. I have much more to offer than my current situation allows me to express, but I feel hopeful that I can find a way.

  It seems like I'm always starting again lately   Here's hoping for a moratorium on monkey wrenches for the next while.

  Take care
  -J-

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